After spending much of yesterday crying, and cursing my lousy fucking ovaries & the lousy fucking doctors, I went to bed at 10pm with a splitting headache. I logged on this morning to find all your fantastic messages of support. I want to thank each and every one of you for your kind words - it means a great deal to know that there are so many of you out there rooting for me.
Luna asked about Mr H's SA. Based on the tests we've had done so far, his count ranges from between 17 & 19 million, and motility between 54% & 76%. The main problem seems to be with morphology (the results have consistently showed around 75% abnormal forms). They also do not appear to hang around for that long - when we switched to this particular clinic, they performed a swim up test which showed that, two hours later, most of them are dead in the water.
And yet, in spite of Mr H's wonky sperm and my now seemingly recalcitrant ovaries, we did manage to conceive without medical assistance (I then lost the baby at seven weeks) - which is what led me to think that IUI might be a way of salvaging something from this cycle.
I've spent the morning obsessively googling such cheering phrases as 'IVF poor response' and 'diminished ovarian reserve', and have come up with a list of questions ready to ask Dr Abrupt tomorrow:
Is it possible for us to convert this cycle into an IUI? And secondly, what are the costs involved in doing this? As Claire so rightly acknowledges, money is an issue in all of this. If we cancel this cycle prior to retrieval, we still have to pay £1,000 plus £500 for the drugs (the bulk of which I have now taken). If we go ahead, we are looking at £3,000 for a complete cycle plus the £500 for the drugs. Working on the assumption that we are unlikely to get a positive result with this first cycle, then it makes financial sense to cancel & focus our efforts on the next cycle, rather than paying out for something that probably will not work.
Other questions for Dr Abrupt:
Why did I have such a poor response to the Menopur? Is this an indication that my eggs are in fact past their sell by date, or do they simply need to adjust the meds?
And finally, leading on from this last one, do they have a protocol in mind for next time? As both Mel and Luna asked, is there a particular reason why they seem so intent on Menopur? Would a shorter, 'flare' protocol perhaps produce better results?
From what I read, it seemed that acupuncture may help - does anyone have any thoughts, positive or negative, on this one?
Dr Approachable said that I should in the meantime carry on with the Menopur injections, which I have been doing. But all we can do now is to wait - tomorrow's appointment will presumably resolve things one way or another.